well guys ..i am back ..
i read these lines mean while
"the activity in ur life is inversely proportional to the amout of blogging"
yeh u must have guessed it ..last few months were pretty eventful
...
after the last post we all went through the gruelling placement sessions
things finally came out to be satisfactory if not extra ordinary
some bad decisions ..some hard work ..trauma and finally the catch prize..[:)]
...
well this post may seem a bit boring but its like telling the truth ..the essence of .."passing thoughts"

it started with fun of non serious attemp to get feel of things in AD.
then a dream shattering experience with a lost chance to replace "larry ellison"
then i guess some despiration crept into me this is where i ws set up for a debatably wrong decision ..and i got my first job with "big blue" ...guys should have seen my dejected face ...i was made 2 realise again and agian invain i got the first one.. and this is where critics come 2 picture
i still some how regret that stupidity of loosing a chance over some thing that didn't desreved me ..(i am not boasting though)
but then where learning comes and u get 2 understand the meaning of "you make ur own destiny "
courageous people learn from heir mistake and grow upon the past ...
then some back paining session of retrospection and self introspection
and soon i learned a lot ...and emerged as a better learned person..just imagine 9 subject in 2 months...pheww
then music starts 2 charm ur souls and ur ready 2 face the mountain
an agressive run towards compitition and will power 2 face all odds ,..
now the oppotunities again started pouring in and I stated playing it big ..
some series of successful attempts ..facing TI interview ..
and finally getting the PHILIPS ..
what i feel from this job is there is a bit of everything i wanted 4 myself from a job
handsome money ...creativity ...innovative job... gud brand name
recognition of work and most importantly an opprtunity 2 grow
this by far not be the best placement in the campus still one of the most satifying one
and only that matters 4 an individual
...

Final days...!!
hey guys its nothing ..ehhh i am not dying...
its just some days before "the prized day" i am writting this blog..
as a token of my thoughts before getting "it" the JOB
today is ..check the post day :D some day before first company comes..
i was told last year this is the most happening time of the college...
well i can say not 2 be the most happening at least differnt days...
a sense of urgency and commitment on every face .....(a rare thing)
toiling hard the mid night lamp(tube lights...he he he)...everybody is concerned for the future...atmosphere as i perseave is heavy....ocassional chitter chatter here n there..."bakkar" is low...
everybody waiting desperatly for NET not for "orkut" but for learning..
hey this blog is abt me...
i am a bit tense 2...( i am no exception)..at least 4 data structure ..with those stupid trees lurking over my head...they simply suck...
well by n large i rate my self chill taking things easy and quite...not into 2 much hoopla of the things..some where down the cornor confident things will happen 4 me and they will happen gud...
keeping my fingers crossed ...i end this blog

mood:thought less

naucternal creatures do have a limit and do i have ...its has been long since i slept before 12 midnight..nut it has its fun...fell kinda proud when u brag about it..(he he)
i thing i know this rattling sound of insects outside my window provoke my thoughts ..as if asking me lets it out ...probably my next blog..yea it is one..well my love night is neraly 9 years old...
it started for different reasons...[:)] ...but finally took shape of studies...
but guys as even light has physical limit of speed...so do my body...
....ad even spiderman needs sleep...and i am a humble human...[:P]

"one night @ call center" -chetan bhagat

guys i am not a reading buff..i have just read possibly 4-5 buks
and last 2 of those came within this month..

i just happen 2 read this buk in the middle of exams..
. that 2 before my deadliest exam..guys do give it a shot

the thing a liked about this writing was the way shayam see's his girl friend priyanka
that is really close 2 the way i luk and more generally boys normally luk at girls..they just pick a qnique feature and keep on admiring them..doesn't matter if its' admirable at all
yarron jaise there is saying----

"dillagi dewaar se toh chadi kya chez hai
..dil aya gadhi par toh pari kya cheez hai.."

seriously luv is blind u never know for what u may like a person.

although fiction has been stuffed in the story...i know its a fiction only yet too much of dramatic events happening...difficult 2 digest.. :D

this story is more like a social message and an authors attempt 2 talk about more general pple
and get out of that "IIT" label..he mentions it many time though

but the most beautiful message in my view was th advice given by god
to shyam...it was very close 2 my observation as i myself has seen if ur confident about urself
then other factors have depleted effect over the problem. And most importantly a he said
do what ur inner voice says..that is very important otherwise there will certainly be a pressure buildup inside you that will deplete ur concentration.

all n all a nice buk if a non habitual reader like me can finish it in 7 hrs ..it would be less than 5 for fiction admirers

i am back ....
its 1.30 pm of night and after a wholesome treachery 2 the soul about studying for 2 hours what can be better then listening 2 pink floyd..
donno y this man's voice has something that touches...(yea man we have hearing it a billionth time)
and for those who still r thinking that pink floyd is some new pink coloured candy ...u sob go to some delhi public toilet and die in the left overs..
just give a try man u will luv it...

well i am not here as a music critique..
well the real big news is BUSH is in...and after all those articles frm hindu i can say ..either we r on right track or we are just foolin our souls by thinking that we r drivin america crazy by our 8+ growth rate
well beaurocracy is always difficult 4 a humble mind like me..but if true Mr singh is surely doing the right thing by increasing reliance on nuks..4 energy.
1.5+ kg grey pple will say that we are leaving our 50 years stand of non allignment.well 4 those
i offer my longest finger.guys comeon think positive and learn 2 lead by ruling and just creating a pity scene by fighting 4 the weak....(this all together a different story..will touch upon sometimes else)
but my point is ok..we will be some how boung to NSG 's 4 fuel but the hidden bait is the generation of new budding nuclear scientist..who not only as a result of booming nuke energy sector wil churn out those valuable giga watts but also will surely find a way to put the word's 25% thorium reseves 2 gud use.
at least it would be much better then jumbo Hydro plants ..plagued by big time exodus of pple.

keep the faith till i return.

Date:6-Jan 2006
mood:philosophical

hey just feeling a bit blank in my head
possibly ..I have just been subjected to a question that hovers my community again and again
people always tend to define their existence ..Don't know why..And I wonder if it is really important
people ask.. Why u think ur jain/or do u follow jainism strictly..
well I say to those people that "YES" I do follow it strictly..But my strictly is strict above anybody else definition..my experience of 19(21-2(my first 2 years I was just a piece of flash) )years says that jainism is all about taking the spirit the inner self to a higher level by the the attainment of self control
self control is more then "eating habit".
-it includes control over thoughts
-killing ur ego and many more things
I has taken me to all the time pursue these two goals and believe me every day u try ..U feel the happiness of being closer to god and the pain of realization of smallness of my soul against the great one
life is not about defining things its about living ..and creating examples..
jainism says that thinking someone's/something' bad is nearly half as bad as doing it..
if so ..how many times have we stopped our thoughts from swaying to evil side..
. .so how many people have been forgiven by us for their harm against us..
..how many people have we acknowledged for their vital role in life..
..and to be straight how many times have realized the greatness of our parents who after a few years of married life have been sacrificing till date just make us a better person

we need widen the reach of our thought ..if we want to live an ideal life and understanding jainism will fetch us a gud enough tool to do so
more then benevolence to animals we need to show benevolence to fellow humans around us
believe me a gud start can be from now.

..Stop wasting time over thinking too much ,for centuries people have been doing that..Now we nee to stand up and start acting over our resolution and aims.
just peep under ur collar and see if ur believe to be acclaimed as humans ..and if answer is yes then ask "do I qualify to be hailed as follower of jainism.